Sad in Spring?

This is a message for anyone who feels out of sync with the season, whose inner world seems to be clashing with what’s happening outside. Because grief and sadness can arise in springtime, same as in winter. And when the heart full of sorrow meets a shimmering mountainside covered in late snow, the effect may be to dispel the clouds within – or to drive a sharp stone point into the tender center of being. And when our eyes are still welling with tears even when we’re looking at a field of vibrant new wildflower blossoms –

It can be so easy to think we must be doing something wrong. 

How could we still cling to this pain when every insect and dewdrop and neighbor around us is singing “Happy Happy Joy Joy” in 16 part harmony? We must surely be a stubborn fool, says the critical mind (or at least mine does). We must be in love with our sadness, to hold so fast while all creation conspires and strives to wrest it from our grasp. 

Well, this is simply to say that ours is a universe of cycles within cycles. And while the seasons are powerful teachers, we have our own inner seasons, as well – the timing of which is not obligated to line up with the solar calendar that regulates changes in the weather at our particular spot on the globe. 

So if you’re experiencing a deep emotional process that seems to be at odds with what nature is doing all around you; if turning your attention to the flourishing of springtime doesn’t instantly erase your grief, your distress, your heartache; if the phenomena that are currently making all your friends giddy are actually sharpening your pain and leaving you feeling lost, confused, or alienated –

Please, please, please, above all, PLEASE do not beat yourself up any further. We don’t all go through our periods of profound inner challenge at the culturally appropriate time. It’s ok to be sad in springtime. You are NOT doing it wrong. 

Try to stay open, as much as you can, even when the temptation is strong to implode. 

Remember that “beauty” is not synonymous  with “elation.” While the onslaught of color and light can feel overwhelming during a period of depression, if we can stay present,  we may find ourselves stunned and indescribably moved by the perfect symmetry of a richly purple rose unfolding beside our door. A wild thunderstorm can jolt us for a moment out of our small-s self and bring us into direct communion with the Divine. 

And, if spring is bringing a difficult emotional landscape into stark relief, remember the most important lesson of the seasons: All things pass. 

All things pass. 

ALL things pass. 

You can feel free to be fully present with what is in your inner world, knowing, with the part of you that simply knows, that the pain you feel now will, like the clouds, inevitably shift, change, transform, and finally, pass. 

3 thoughts on “Sad in Spring?

  1. Absolutely beautiful. You have put words to exactly what I have been feeling lately. I just did a show Monic journey asking about grief, and the last part of the journey I was given back my cup of sorrow to drink it almost as a tonic. It resonates with what you are describing. Also in my journey, The weeping willow’s and all the trees were weeping right along beside me.

  2. Most precious Gayan,Indeed, sadness can enter the heart/mind and seem to be setting up housekeeping there. I too have found that reminding “This too shall pass” is good inner wisdom. And the staying in the moment and for me remaining curious… that then allows for other senses/sense gates to remain open and share the change which is all around.  And the snow… the song/dance comes to mind “Be melting snow, be melting snow, wash yourself of yourself, wash yourself of yourself.” And then the song Melinda taught at Kirtan helps this being maintain a gentle inner resonance “I will be gentle with myself, I will love myself, I am a child of the Universe being born each moment.” With you in sadness, with you in joy, with you in love, with you in body, with you in spirit ~ And in 3 days with you in person!!!Halima 

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  3. I had a period of my life where I always hit a bad depressive spot in springtime– high school through college and a bit into adulthood, but not too recently. I always totally DIPPED round about April and through May. It was frustrating because I kept reading stuff about Seasonal Affective Disorder and I was like “but there’s MORE sunlight! It’s not the sunlight! What’s going on?!” Now I’ve come to accept that I’m just neurodivergent and I should just roll with it when my self doesn’t follow the rules.

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